Making plans

So today i had intended to do so much but as always no point me making plans as they never go accordingly. Phillip and I however did manage to go to Win Dixie today and have a nose at some of the deals they have going on. I know we spent $32 and saved $38, Phillip was over the moon with this and tried to call his sister Emily as he knew she would be happy for him.



Poppy is staying upstairs with her friend tonight and the 2 of them have been giggling all night, I kid you not these two kids are crazy. But it is so nice to see them laughing and joking together. Jessie hasn't been feeling herself and I have spent most of tonight upstairs keeping her company. I pray to God that she gets well soon as no one deserves to be in that much pain. I feel very lucky to know the people I do here, they are such a mixed group and each bring a different quality to my life.



Tonight I was privy to a conversation between two Mums or Moms discussing their 16 year old daughters and birth control. Now I am confident that when Poppy is ready to have that kind of a relationship with a guy she will come to me. What worries me is putting your daughter on the pill doesn't actually solve much other than pregnancy. Now if Poppy were to come home pregnant I can deal with that, would I be happy? Not overly as a child changes your life in such a big way, you no longer have a life of your own and I want her travel the world, see new things and live before she has children. But STD's scare the hell out of me, you can't give HIV back or put it up for adoption. HIV is the scariest but there are so many other diseases that can be caught. Would I put Poppy on the pill? Probably but only after I had drummed it into her that a) Sex should be between two people in love and a committed relationship. Preferably someone you intend to spend the rest of your life with. b) Condoms should always be used.

Being a teenager now scares me, I am after all no saint I had Poppy at 20, but honestly believe she was a gift from God to make my dads last few years happy ones. My Mum says she was meant to be, that Poppy was sent to our family for a reason. She held us together when life was at it's hardest, when we had nothing to smile about Poppy could make you happy. I don't know what is the right answer, I know in an ideal world our children would be waiting till marriage to make these choices but that's not the world we live in.



Poppy and I summer 95